I Have a Baby Cold

UPDATE: For some reason, all 100+ comments on this post got deleted when I moved from blogger to wordpress. But the point is still valid! Feel free to restart the discussion.

It seems like everyone around me (friends, blogs, etc) are wanting to have a baby, pregnant or have a kid already.

I am FAR from that. I don't know if it's selfishness, immaturity or just plain lack of the motherly gene but I know that I don't want them. At least for now.
I am talking about not at all.
Which is very weird since I grew up Catholic and so did my husband and we are surrounded by families with kids and friends that want to have kids.

Sometimes I feel like that means I'm a bad person. Or that something is wrong with me.

Why don't I have these tendencies?

One of my best friends just had a beautiful baby boy and I adore him. I love him so much.

But I don't want a baby.

I will play with your baby. But then I will gladly give him back when he/she cries or needs a diaper change.

I really want to travel.

I want to see the world.

I want to drink and have fun.

All the time. And I don't want to worry about getting a babysitter or having my husband stay at home when I go out.

I am terrified of how my kids will turn out.

Kids these days. They can be very bratty, rude and just plain bad.

I creeped on my sisters' friend's instagram the other day and it had pictures of weed on there. Excuse me? Get it together!
My sisters are 7 years younger than me, and a lot of times I treat them like a parent would. Which they hate.But what if my kids turn out terrible at life in general? They can't get a job, they have no friends, and they hate me?
That scares me to death.

And here's a problem (judge away): I like being the center of attention.

I know, I know. That's bad.

But I do. I like that my husband focuses on me. And not a child who needs constant attention.

One reason why I maybe should have a youngin': the relationship I have with my parents.

I love my parents so much and I love that I can tell them anything.

I can go to them for everything.

And as they get older it's the same for them.